Nineteen years ago today my life changed but I did not know it.

God is like that so often, isn’t He? Lovingly working behind the scenes

    pouring into our lives just the gifts that He has chosen for us.

    Keeping His Hand on the pressures, the hardships

    always loving

My life had come to an ending of sorts.

Although the tears had stopped

   the heartache would always be there

      Those deep down desires painfully ached to be filled.

But I knew that God is always Faithful.

I knew that He would never fail me even if for the rest of my life

    I never had what I thought was so important to me.

I signed up to take a Precept Bible study course

     on Habakkuk.

      At least it was something to do, I thought.

      Smile.

Little did I know how God would use that class in my life.

Week after week I poured over verses while my heart slowly healed.

These verses clung to me in Habakkuk 3:17, 18

        Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines,

Though the olive crops fail and the fields produce no food. Though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls.

         Yet I will rejoice in my Lord I will be joyful in God my Savior.

 

And I clung to them as for my very life.

 

At the last day of the study I shared how very much these verses had come to mean to me.

They had breathed life into my broken heart.

They had given me a purpose and a hope.

I chose to rejoice,

                to praise,

                   to renew my devotion to the One Who Loved me with a forever Love.

It was months later when I began the process of adoption

   hardly considering that God might choose fit to bless me.

     And in record time, the adoption was processed and I was flying to Russia

        to meet and hold Noelle for the first time.

Her birthday shines with God’s Grace and Love.

At a time when I laid it all down at His feet

    He created this marvelous bundle of life

        To show me again and again and again

That no matter how difficult this life becomes

His Love is Forever…

    Let that fill your heart today as it does mine.

His Love for you is Forever. Nothing can ever separate you from His Love.

Nothing

     And no one.

He used a precious little baby girl to show me His Love in a tangible way.

And all the glory goes to Him.

Happy Birthday,

      Noelle.